Home at last

What an amazing Journey it has been and I know it has really only just begun!  My heart is so overwhelmed with joy that I didn't realize I could have.  On December 10, 2008 Cheng-Yu was only 4 months old and living in Taiwan.  I was at a writing workshop for professional development and when asked to write a poem, I composed the following;

I Am Already His Mother

I am finding it hard to wait, but I am already his mother.

I wonder what a little baby named Cheng-Yu sounds like when he cries.

I hear an unfamiliar language that I do not understand.

I see the streets of Taiwan and see his face among the crowd.

I want to hold him in my arms and see God's promise revealed.

I am finding it hard to wait, but I am already his mother.

I pretend that I am rocking a baby boy to sleep.

I feel an overwhelming love for a country to which I have never traveled.

I touch a soft blue pillow monogrammed with the name Ben.

I worry that my child will not bond with me.

I cry when I think about the choice his birthmother had to make.

I am finding it hard to wait, but I am already his mother.

I understand that God is in control.

I say that God's timing is perfect even though it is hard to wait.

I dream about the first time I meet my baby boy in Taiwan and hold him in my arms.

I try to wait with grace and patience.

I hope I make him happy.

I am finding it hard to wait, but I am already his mother.

On Wednesday, February 18 I no longer had to wait!   

Robin

Proverbs 3:5 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart.